I had a dream last night.
One fueled by liquid comfort and protected between sheets of cotton and dormant time
A dream of happiness and sadness trapped in suspension. Hovering above outside my reach, but lingering in hope, guilt, despair and soothing tranquility
There she was; so full of life
Working to prepare for the impending company. Busy and anxious.
Outside pods filled with my childhood. Soon to be gone. Soon, to be so distant, the fog will blind me from any remaining senses
I didn’t see it. I didn’t realize it
My present and past found their way to each other acting out this play in my psyche.
I, on my knees, watched in confusion
Not until my eyes opened to the darkness of reality did I see
It was her goodbye. I treated it with ill respect; with only my childish demeanor
I was a child; or was I an adult?
Was my dream fueled by memory or transference from my past to present?
Was I saying goodbye to my home, my mother, my childhood or innocence?
Was I opening the door to uncertainty?
I had a dream last night
I saw my mother
I smiled; now I reflect