I won’t be there with you this morning to see the heaviness of your eyes as you smile and hesitantly give me the first morning kiss. The feel of my fingers brushing through each strand of your soft hair was my heaven. I am saddened to know that you are releasing tears alone in your quiet safe place. The place we called our getaway.
I want these words to dry those eyes.
I write this letter to bring happiness to your sadness; direction to your wandering and comfort to your anxiety. I am here with you. Close your eyes my love. Close them real tight. Can you feel my breath against your skin? I can see the shivers running down your spine. That is me. I won’t speak to you again, but I will protect you.
When the storms come racing in, I will keep you dry. Dry and safe from the dangers that lie ahead.
I always promised you a lifetime together. I unfortunately, had to break that promise. It wasn’t in my control.
Still no regrets. I lived every day giving all I had for you. I loved you unconditionally and as many times as I told you, I wish I said it more.
Each day, I wrote a different reason why I loved you.
In the back of the house buried two feet under the oak, I kept that list. Cherish it and embrace it and if you listen closely you can hear my voice telling you each one of those reasons.
I am thankful that I found you; that you accepted me into your world
Each day was an adventure and a challenge, but it opened my eyes to the wonders of life
You became my compassion, my passion, my heart and my soul
A believer in my dreams and the plane that took me to the clouds
I am forever grateful as I journey to this unknown place for having you until my last breath
I want to write forever so you always have my thoughts
No material value, no mementos needed for us. We were spirits free and unchained
With the wind at our back and the sun to warm our skin, we saw the world from our perspective. We saw a world of peace and beauty.
That, my love, is eternal
Eternal as the love we continue to share.
Goodbye for now until you open your eyes in the morning and a bird soar across the sun.
You will know I am with you.