A Life Changed – Original Poem

All my life I had the right romantic lines
Misguided hearts took in these words
Dreams of princes and horses
Even I got swept away

I cannot commit, I heard them say
I am a fuck-up, I witnessed with each passing day
Deep I sighed; diving head first into a journal of spinning wheels

Over and over in a deja vu twister running rampant through the open fields

I prayed for the discovery of love
Who received them, I do not know
It is faith, written in scriptures by men fortifying the ground with nourishment for the plants to grow
Like the spirits of great men and women before, I am a visitor finding a way to a land of promise

High on this cross I dangle looking on this living garden flourishing below

I wait for answers
Will they come in the wind; will they be summoned by an angel; will they go undelivered because I have been given a destiny of decadence

It was a test of faith; a calling of fate
Welcoming me after a tired pilgrimage through the desert

She awaits
Dressed in white; welcoming me with her virgin smile
Preserved for me

I take her outstretched hand with all the strength remaining and we float to the clouds
High above the chaos where sounds of violins lull the angry beasts away

I am at peace
To feel this love is like a thousand waves crashing on my back washing away all the mistakes
She waited

Journey of Discovery – Original Poem

I would never give up on you.
In faith, in glory, in sadness I will be by your side

Right now, I cannot
I cannot comfort you with my words

You stand alone without direction; uncertain of the life ahead
Decisions are there, sealed away in an envelope inside your head
Sealed tight by your past

You have choices now that must be found within yourself
A pilgrimage awaits you; a rite of passage to find answers

You have the strength in your heart to fuel your legs as you venture into the dessert
That infinite abyss coddles you with fear and heartache
Dust from the wind will blind you
Find the perseverance to see

Only you can complete this spiritual quest and only then will happiness caress your skin; soak through the pores and flow through your body like a renaissance

This rising of the phoenix will awaken you
Flowers will rise in the sand; suns will collide, enlightenment will be discovered

Then, at that moment, I will return

Today marks a celebration of you
Find the path;
It will be laced with broken dreams that will cut you
Work through the blood to find the honey

You will find what you are seeking

I will be there
I will always be there

 

I Can See – Original Poem

I feel once again
It is all clear
Rising from the ashes of a life led without clarity

I can feel again
Pierced through my skin, I breathe life out of this heated body of flesh and blood

I love again
In greatness, there is life
Earned, fought, determined
Focused

With a thousand kisses, I will shower you
With a thousand more, I will remind you

Every day
Every moment
I swear

From the hearts of children to the final prayers of the dying, you are my in between
A gift that unwraps my vulnerability

A heart broken in pieces
Lying relentlessly scattered
Struggling to come together once more

A crowd gathers
Strangers converging on a miracle
A foundation born from an explosion
Fractured, impaired, powerless

From the ruins of a life lost
Courage is rendered with the kindness of her smile
Her tender hand picks up the remnants and with soft kisses a phoenix reborn

I see her
She rescues me

She is me
I am her
I am not alone

I Promise You This – Original Poem


I hope that you will understand
This is not a one night stand
When I reached to take your hand, I meant to promise you this life I have planned

Please forgive me for I have sinned
I rushed you into my arms without the honor of chivalry
A knight less humbled by the lustful passion silhouetted by the candlelight
The vision of you forever pinned

With my words I swept you away to a place where poetry and motion left us breathless
With one final gasp I heard your calls
A cry for help and happiness and so much more

You lay beside me dreaming a lifetime away flying together on a magical journey high in the sky
The sun is our enemy
Hard, raw and judging

Judge thee not
Our sins are prayers for the future
I promise you this

I will return
I will remain

In time, you will see
In passing, we will grow
Fondness in a kiss

Patience in the passing season

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I promise you this
This is not a one night stand

I echo again these words
I promise you this
This is not what I had planned

I Thank The Lord – Original Poem

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I thank the Lord for your presence

The ghosts of the past haunt me with chilling replays of the same horror story
In a loop it plays
Beating down on me like a hard sun

I thank the Lord for bringing me to you
My friend, my guiding force

Alice looked for answers in a land of wonder
Dorothy sought a way home
Peter longed to be forever young
Mary Jane wanted to hypnotize you from reality

Rolling out the red carpet for the gala opening night of the rest of my life
You are the champagne that gets me drunk; the lavish gown that makes me feel important; the paparazzi that immortalizes me for fifteen minutes at a time

I thank the Lord for the rain to cleanse my soul

I am your son, servant and great hope
I am rich in this earthly poverty
Humbled

I thank the Lord for bringing you to bring light to my darkness

For the family, friends, lovers and demons, I thank the Lord
I look up to the sky and see you smiling in the sunlight

I knew once that I knew nothing
City lights disguise
Country roads hide

In the infinite place, there is freedom
The mind escape

I thank the Lord for bringing you to me
Your kindness saves me
Your presence protects

Inner Demons – Original Poem

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The steaming water is beating down my back
Naked and still
As the water trickles down my body, I think in circles
Over and over I see the days of my life
Each mistake a road block creating another path of disaster

Darkness and silence fill the room
Yet I still hear the screaming
From inside my head, the voices come from all directions

Piercing
Water turns to blood circling around the drain

Eyes closed deepening the darkness

A deep breath
The taste of uncertainty down my throat

Tomorrow is another day
Tomorrow is another day

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Learn from happiness
Drown the sadness
Destroy the bad

The sun will rise through this dark abyss
It will radiate once again upon this forehead

Naked and wet
Exposing the inner demons

Walk away
Don’t look back

Tomorrow is another day
Tomorrow is another day

A cleansing rebirth

I Miss You Still – Original Poem

I miss you still
Like the corner of my mind, I still feel you all the time

I miss you still
Hoping in my heart, I will see you one more time

I miss you still
It aches inside when I think too much of the days we spent together and the nights you soothed my soul

With each passing moment, I remember fondly your words; so kind; so poignant
You reached into my mind and held my thoughts tight

In you, I became me
You inspired me in darkness
Lifted me from the trenches
Nurtured me with your approach toward life

I see your picture on the wall
Sensing your words, I feel your presence
So strong

Waiting for a sign you are watching over me
I want you to know I have done well
I want you to be proud
To smile; to hug; to embrace

The essence of independence has triumphed through your courage

Each step toward greatness is shared with you

I miss you still

Like a baby bird recently hatched, I look to the sky in wonder

Waiting
Waiting

I miss you still
Comfortably insane
In my silence, I call to you

I will not close these mental images
The box remains open

I miss you still